Sunday, January 31, 2016
Well…shit just got real. Started moving today and have till Monday to clear the house out…then I’m going to be focusing on A LOT of me time and just doing me! I’m having the most stressful past few days and am not looking forward to this week because I’m really worried about Thursday and feel so depressed and alone :( God damn, my life has changed dramatically within not even this past month and I feel like I’m back to square one and my life is shambles…I’m going to try and make a better situation out of a bad one though and work on bettering my life even more than I have and going back to school. Especially going back to the ‘normal’ Ashlee again. I’m getting closer to the way I used to be every day…So I really hope I can move on from this sooner than I’m thinking I will…It’s probably gonna take a while.

Sunday, January 17, 2016
Don’t ask! I’ve been going through so much this week…it’s been the worst week of my whole life :( I’ll update soon..

want to give the middle finger but i got two better! DEUCES!!

---> DEUCES REMIX <---

(MOOD) i’m willing to work it out however long it takes you. you feel like you miss those happy days well boy, that makes two of us…and if it doesn't soon, i'm chucking up them deuces cause i want to give the middle finger but i got two better ;p

this ones for you, rick!


&& don’t take this personal, but you’re the worst, you know what you’ve done to me. and all though it hurts i know i just can’t keep running away…

i don’t need you, i don’t need you, i don’t need you but i want you. i don’t mean to, i don’t mean to, i don’t mean to, but i love you…

(MOOD) =( this video reminds me of what i would have done if i hadn't gotten control over my emotions, it was so me just a few months ago...lmao! and plus i can't live without hearts breaking every single day and i hate this feeling.

Tuesday, December 29, 2015
So I finally got my Macbook working again. Plus I have my Dell still but I was more concerned as to why my Macbook was doing what it was doing because everybody told me that Macbook’s won’t get viruses and will still run as fast as it does 10 years from now as it did when you just buy them..So Christmas was good overall except for the fact that out of that whole week I get sick right on Christmas morning. Well it really lasted most of the day, I had a cluster headache on the left side of my head that resulted in me throwing up from it. The next day I still felt kind of sick and had a mild headache but at least I didn’t throw up or feel nauseous lol. And just some minor difficulty when it comes to my relationship and spending more time together but I don’t like to announce too much publicly about my relationships so I’ll keep it at that. I just can’t wait for things to be normal again which it gets better on and off..

Tuesday, July 14, 2015
Pete came down for his hearing this past Tuesday, and before that he kept saying how he wanted something serious with me even debated on getting me pregnant! (even though I couldn’t handle that right now lol but didn’t really say anything..) but then he would start accusing me of all this shit and i don’t know but i had this gut feeling that his accusations and assumptions were coming from his own guilty conscious…so i know i shouldn’t have and never snoop like this but he left his phone in my car while he went into the court house and i went through it…sure enough my gut was right. he had been seeing his old girlfriend he was with when i first met him (some fat, ugly mexican girl) who bailed on him once he got locked up tho. i held him down, did so much and was there for him more than anyone and he tells me if he got out he would make it up to me. i thought we had something special but this always ends up happening to me. i’m very upset now since then, just knowing how much time and effort i put into him and making this work and yet he comes home and sees me only a couple days out of the entire almost two months hes out and fucks his scumbag ex so i guess this is what i get for letting my guard down again..i’ll finish the rest of this later. very busy tonight. mom’s in hospital and i am putting my little man to bed. night!

Wednesday, May 13, 2015
I moved my old blog to this one! But the old layout still grew on me so I kept it up :) I'll post more soon...